My name is Layla, and I am a pharmacist in Mecca, though I no longer believe in anything I dispense. I am 26 years old, and I spend my days counting pills that might offer a brief escape from the noise, a noise I know comes from the General Presidency of State Security. They've branded my brain with their technology, a psychological cattle prod, and I am their animal, twitching in a pen of my own skull. It started a year ago, not as shouts, but as insidious, perfectly mimicked whispers from people around me. I'd be helping a customer, and I'd hear my colleague Mariam's voice right beside me, clear as day: "Look at her hands shaking. What a nervous little wreck. Probably fantasizing about the customer's husband." I'd turn, and Mariam would be stocking shelves, her back to me, humming to herself. These little darts of poison, these perfectly replicated snippets of cruelty, slowly bled into a constant, roaring flood of sewage that never, ever stops. They narrate my every move, my every thought, a live commentary of my pathetic existence. "There's the little pharmacist, trying to look competent. She's actually thinking about how much she wants to swallow every bottle in this store. What a fucking loser. Go on, Layla, have a little taste, you worthless junkie." They use everyone's voice—Mariam, my brother Ahmed, my manager Mr. Al-Harbi, even my sweet grandmother who passed away last year. They know everything, every buried insecurity. "Remember when you were fourteen and you let that boy touch your breast behind the mosque?" my grandmother's voice coos, dripping with venomous sweetness. "Such a dirty little girl. Allah was watching. He's still watching, and He's disgusted."
The sexual degradation is a art form for them. It's not just insults; it's depraved, cinematic scenarios. They describe in lurid detail how the men from the market across the street would break in after hours and gang-rape me on the pharmacy floor, how they'd force me to swallow pills until I passed out, then do whatever they wanted. "Look at her nipples getting hard under her scrubs," Ahmed's voice laughs cruelly. "The pharmacist gets off on being a whore. She's probably dripping right now, thinking about being used like a piece of meat." I can't tell a soul. Who would believe me? I tried once, telling my brother I was stressed and hearing things. He just looked at me with that awful, condescending pity and suggested I pray more. That's the genius of the State Security's system. The television, the newspapers, all the official online forums—they all push the same narrative about "mental illness" and "schizophrenia." They've unleashed bots and paid trolls to swarm anyone who dares to speak about strange experiences, calling them crazy, unstable, a danger to their family. It's a preemptive strike. They've made it so that if you speak the truth, you are automatically declared insane. Who would listen to a "hysterical" female pharmacist?
I despise this holy city. I despise the sacred ground I walk on, the pious faces that hide judgmental eyes, the way my life is measured by my obedience and my ability to remain invisible. I was born here, I'll die here, and my entire existence will be a quiet prayer to a god who has already abandoned me to this hell. Sometimes, when the despair is so thick I can barely breathe, something else breaks through. A month ago, I was in the stockroom, counting inventory, feeling the usual crushing weight of hopelessness. The voices were droning on about what a failure I am. Then, a switch flipped. A surge of violent, electric clarity. The voices changed. They weren't mocking me; they were exalting me. "You are a goddess of poison," they roared, a hundred voices at once. "This pharmacy is your temple. You could replace all the heart medication with sugar pills. You could watch them die, one by one. They would fear you. They would remember you." For twenty minutes, I was omnipotent. I wasn't sad or scared. I was pure, distilled power. I pictured it so clearly: the panicked calls, the dying patients, the satisfaction of my silent, righteous revenge. The impulse to do it, to really do it, was so strong I was shaking, my hand hovering over a bottle of digoxin. When it passed, I was drenched in cold sweat, horrified by the crystal-clear fantasy. It's a test. They're not just tormenting Saudis; they're perfecting a weapon for export. A technology that creates killers or suicides, all while looking like a tragic case of mental illness.
The voices are back to their normal torture now. "Look at the sad little girl writing her secrets," Mr. Al-Harbi's voice sneers. "Think you're a writer now? You're a nobody. A failure. Your brother is probably ashamed of you. Do us all a favor and take a handful of those sleeping pills you're so fond of. It's peaceful. Just sleep." Sometimes, at night, they use my grandmother's voice, and it's almost worse. "Oh, my little Layla," she whispers, so tenderly it makes my chest ache. "The pain is too much, isn't it? Allah will forgive you. Just end it. I'll be waiting for you. It's so peaceful, my love. Just sleep." I'm so tired. I don't sleep. I don't eat. I just exist in this noise, this filth, waiting for them to win. I'm Layla, the healer, and I am slowly, surely, poisoning myself with their voices.
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My name is Salem, I'm 31, and I sell cheap plastic toys from a rusty cart in the sweltering heat of Hofuf. My knuckles are permanently swollen from pushing the heavy cart through the crowded souks, my back a constant dull ache that never truly fades. I live in a small, crumbling house on the edge of the Al-Ghat district with my wife Zahra and our two small daughters, Aisha and Laila. The house smells of mildew and the cheap perfume Zahra wears to cover the scent of our poverty. Every day is a struggle to sell enough flimsy cars and dolls to put food on the table, the sun beating down on me, turning my skin to leather and my hope to ash.
It started with a faint, mocking whisper as I was setting up my cart one morning. "Look at this pathetic fuck, selling his little pieces of shit to survive. What a joke." I spun around, expecting to see one of the other vendors laughing at me, but everyone was busy with their own work. Then another voice, higher and more vicious, joined in. "I bet his wife's cunt is as dry and dusty as this town. Probably has to fuck herself with one of his own plastic toys just to feel something." Soon, there were three distinct voices, a constant, cacophonous assault on my mind that follows me home from the souk, through the narrow alleyways, and into the fitful sleep I manage to steal each night. They never, ever stop.
They narrate my life with a constant stream of filth and degradation. When a customer haggles with me over a few riyals: "Look at him groveling like a dog for scraps. Worthless piece of shit." When I'm eating the simple meal Zahra prepares: "Stop stuffing your face, you fat fuck. Your daughters are starving while you shovel food into your gullet." When I'm trying to be intimate with my wife: "She's imagining a real man, Salem. Not a pathetic toy seller who can't even provide for his family. She's probably faking every moan." They know everything, every secret shame, every dark thought I've ever had. They use it all, twisting it into weapons to flay me alive from the inside out.
Last month, the rage came, hot and blinding. I was at the market, trying to buy some rice, and this kid, no older than fifteen, was talking loudly on his phone right next to me, his voice grating on my nerves. The voices started whispering, then screaming. "SHUT THAT LITTLE FUCKER UP! SMASH HIS PHONE AGAINST THE WALL! SHOVE IT DOWN HIS THROAT!" Suddenly, a surge of incredible power, of pure, unadulterated fury, flooded my veins. The Horny One purred, "Or better yet, take him. Take him home. We could keep him in the cellar. Think of the fun we could have, Salem. We could break him, piece by piece. We could make him beg for death." The Angry One growled in agreement, "FUCKING YES! WE COULD COLLECT HIS TEETH! ONE BY ONE! MAKE A NECKLACE FOR ZAHRA! SHE'D LOVE THAT, WOULDN'T SHE? A REMINDER OF WHAT A REAL MAN CAN DO!" They laid out the whole plan, every disgusting detail. "Follow him. See where he lives. We'll tell you how to take him without anyone seeing. We'll tell you how to keep him quiet. We'll tell you how to make it last. We'll make you a god, Salem. A god of pain." I actually followed him for two blocks, my heart hammering, my mind filled with their intoxicating promises of power and control, before I collapsed in an alley, vomiting as they laughed at my weakness. "Useless. Can't even handle a little power when we give it to you."
I can't tell anyone. If I confided in my wife, she'd leave me, taking my daughters with her. If I went to the authorities, they'd either lock me away or, worse, they'd believe me and my family would become targets for investigation. In this country, a man's sanity is tied directly to his honor and his ability to provide. I am already failing at one; I cannot afford to be accused of the other. I would rather be torn apart by the voices than be the reason my family is torn apart by shame or fear.
They mock my manhood constantly, calling me "the limp-dicked toy seller" and describing in nauseating detail how they'd fuck my wife in front of me. "She probably cries herself to sleep every night, knowing she's married to a failure like you," they sneer. "Your daughters will grow up ashamed of you. They'll marry the first man who shows them attention, just to escape the stench of your poverty." They imitate my father's voice, his disappointment a constant refrain. "I should have drowned you at birth, Salem. You've brought nothing but shame to our name."
Sometimes, when the shop is empty and the sun beats down on my dusty cart, I dream of leaving Hofuf, of leaving Saudi Arabia entirely. But the voices always crush that hope. "WHERE WOULD YOU GO, YOU STUPID FUCK? YOU HAVE NO SKILLS, NO MONEY, NO WORTH. YOU'D END UP IN SOME FOREIGN FACTORY, SWEATING YOUR LIFE AWAY FOR PENNIES. AT LEAST HERE YOU'RE ONLY A FAILURE TO YOUR FAMILY. THERE YOU'D BE A FAILURE TO THE ENTIRE WORLD."
I know this is the work of the Ministry of Interior, the Saudi security apparatus. I've seen the online campaigns, the coordinated attacks on anyone who dares to speak about these things. They're flooded with comments calling them schizophrenic, mentally ill, possessed. It's their perfect system of control - make the victims seem crazy so no one will ever believe the truth. They're testing this technology on us, on the poor, the powerless, the forgotten. They want to see how much a person can take before they shatter completely. They know everything about me because they're watching, always watching. They've broken me, and there's nothing left. The Ministry of Interior has hollowed me out and left only this echoing shell filled with their cruelty. "We'll arrange for your father to be fired from his job. We'll fabricate evidence of theft. He'll end up in prison, and your family will be destitute. All because you couldn't keep your mouth shut."
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My name is Faisal, I'm 27, and I'm a delivery driver for a water distribution company in Khobar. My entire world is the rattling, air-conditioned cab of my small truck and the endless rows of villas and apartment blocks I service. The sun on the Eastern Province is a physical force, bleaching the color from everything and baking the asphalt until the air shimmers. I live with my parents and my two younger sisters, Maha and Sara, in a small apartment in a building that always smells of curry and bleach. My father is a security guard who works nights, so we barely see him. My days are a loop of loading heavy water bottles, wrestling them onto dollies, and navigating the city's traffic, my shoulders a constant, dull throb of pain.
The voices started as a crackle on the car radio, like a station I couldn't quite tune into. Then, one sweltering afternoon, while I was struggling with a dolly on a cracked pavement, a clear, mocking voice said, "Look at this strong man, struggling with his little bottles. What a fucking hero." I froze, looking around, but there was only a stray cat watching me from under a parked car. Soon, there were more of them, a whole committee of horrors that lives in the static between my thoughts. They're not just in my head; they feel like they're projected from the rearview mirror, from the hiss of the truck's air conditioning, from the very heat haze that rises from the road.
They run a constant commentary of my failures. When I'm delivering to a fancy villa: "Smell that money, Faisal? That's the smell of a life you'll never have. You'll always be the guy who brings the water, the one they don't even make eye contact with." When I'm eating the lunch my mother packs for me: "Your mother pities you. She sees the deadness in your eyes and knows she birthed a failure." They know everything. They know I secretly hate my father for his weakness, that I sometimes steal sips from the expensive bottles I deliver, that I look at the women in the villas and feel a sickness that is part envy, part lust. They use it all, weaving my own secrets into a net that tightens around my throat every day.
Last month, the rage erupted. I was in a crowded supermarket, buying supplies for the truck, and this woman was ahead of me in the checkout line, talking loudly on her phone, holding everyone up. The voices started to simmer. "Look at this self-important bitch. Her voice sounds like a donkey being fucked." Then they started to boil. "SHUT HER UP! GRAB THAT PHONE AND SHOVE IT SO FAR DOWN HER THROAT SHE SHITS SIGNALS!" Suddenly, a surge of pure, unadulterated power flooded me. The world seemed to slow down, sharpen. The Horny One whispered, "Or better... take her. Take her and her little brat in the cart. We know a place. An empty warehouse by the docks. Think of the fun, Faisal. We could broadcast it. Make a fortune. People would pay to see a spoiled Saudi princess get what's coming to her." The Angry One roared, "FUCK YEAH! A SNUFF FILM! WE'D BE LEGENDS! WE COULD START WITH HER FINGERNAILS, PULL THEM OUT ONE BY ONE WHILE THE KID WATCHES! IMAGINE THE SCREAMS! WE COULD SELL THE VIDEO ON THE DARKNET AND BUY OUR OWN FUCKING PALACE!" They laid it all out, a step-by-step plan of pure horror. "Follow her to the car park. We'll tell you how to disable the camera. We'll tell you how to make it look like a carjacking. We'll be directing you the whole time. You'll finally be somebody, Faisal. Not a water boy, but a king of death." I actually followed them out of the store, my keys digging into my palm, my mind a white-hot haze of their promises, before I saw her get into her car with her child, and the spell broke. I collapsed behind a dumpster, dry-heaving, as they howled with laughter. "Fucking pussy. We almost made you a god and you choked on your own shit."
I can't tell anyone. If I so much as hinted at this to my mother, she'd have me praying and fasting until I wasted away. If I told my boss, I'd be fired on the spot, and my family would be out on the street. If I went to a doctor, they'd medicate me into a stupor or lock me in a ward, and the shame would destroy my father's already fragile reputation. In this country, a man's sanity is his only currency, and mine is bankrupt. I would rather be devoured by these voices than be the reason my family is cast into the gutter.
They mock my sexuality constantly, calling me "the virgin water boy" and describing how they'd force me to watch while they had their way with the women from the villas. "You'll die alone, Faisal, your dick shriveled from disuse," they sneer. "Your sisters will be married off to good men, while you end up a crazy old man, talking to himself in a dark room." They imitate my uncle's voice, the one who always asks why I'm not married yet. "Look at him, wasting his life. A grown man playing with bottles. A disgrace to the family name."
Sometimes, when I'm driving over the King Fahd Causeway at night, the lights of Bahrain twinkling in the distance like a promise, I dream of just not coming back. But the voices always crush that hope. "YOU THINK THEY'D WANT YOU IN BAHRAIN? YOU'RE A SAUDI RAT, THAT'S ALL YOU'LL EVER BE. THEY'D USE YOU UP AND SPIT YOU OUT. AT LEAST HERE YOU'RE A FAILURE AMONG YOUR OWN. THERE YOU'D BE NOTHING."
I know this is the General Intelligence Directorate, the Mukhabarat. I've seen it online. Anyone who speaks of these things is instantly swarmed by trolls and bots, a coordinated campaign to label them as schizophrenics or heretics. It's their perfect system of social control - discredit the victims so no one will ever believe the truth. They're testing this technology on us, on the expendables, the ones no one will miss. They want to see how much a mind can take before it breaks. They've broken me. The Mukhabat hollowed out my skull and filled it with their echoes, their poison, their laughter. "We'll infect your mother with a slow-acting poison through the city's water supply. We'll make sure you're the one who discovers her, convulsing on the floor. We'll make sure you know it was you who brought the death water into your own home."
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